Ready, Set...

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Read, set, and here I go
To face another day
With only my own hand to hold
To chase the clouds away
Won’t have another by my side
To keep my demons back
No, I won’t have a lover to
Fill me up when I lack

I’ll be alone inside myself,
My only company
But solitude gives me the chance
To get to know.. well, Me.

My own heart has been long ignored
By my own brain - too long!
I’ve gotten to know others, but
forsook my own sweet song

I cannot carry on like this,
Not knowing who I am
For far too long I’ve only glimpsed
And guessed at who I’ve been

But now I guess I get the chance
To take a long hard look
At the girl behind the glass-
The woman I forsook

So ready, set, and here I come;
I’m just around the bend
I’ll get to know my Self again

I’ll be my own best friend

Journy

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