Burning House, Karaoke Cover
This song is one that spoke to me profoundly at the end of my second marriage. Despite knowing I needed to, it took months and months for me to even consider leaving. Even after that, it took several months more to actually make the decision. My heart was broken, and I didn’t want to.... but ultimately I knew it was for the best.
Once I finally faced the truth, there was no turning back... but still I dragged my feet. It was right about then that I heard this song again, and it struck me in a whole new way.
I remember being in the car with him once when it came on. I remember staring out the icy windshield, willing the tears that had sprung to my eyes not to fall; he would ask what they were for, and I wasn’t ready to say it out loud yet. I remember being hurt and scared and angry... angry at God for not fixing my marriage; angry at myself for lacking whatever it was that ‘caused his attention to stray’; and angry at him, for forcing me into such a shitty proverbial corner.
The hurt, fear, and even anger have long since fallen away. Even in light of the past years’ events, there is no anger. In fact, I can finally once again look back at what we had with fondness, laugh about our past experiences, and truly wish him well in his life endeavors. That being said, I figured now was a good time to finally post the song that I can’t hear without thinking of him.
J, if you’re reading this, I truly do wish you love, joy, and peace throughout your life. May your years be long and your bounty plentiful.
Once I finally faced the truth, there was no turning back... but still I dragged my feet. It was right about then that I heard this song again, and it struck me in a whole new way.
I remember being in the car with him once when it came on. I remember staring out the icy windshield, willing the tears that had sprung to my eyes not to fall; he would ask what they were for, and I wasn’t ready to say it out loud yet. I remember being hurt and scared and angry... angry at God for not fixing my marriage; angry at myself for lacking whatever it was that ‘caused his attention to stray’; and angry at him, for forcing me into such a shitty proverbial corner.
The hurt, fear, and even anger have long since fallen away. Even in light of the past years’ events, there is no anger. In fact, I can finally once again look back at what we had with fondness, laugh about our past experiences, and truly wish him well in his life endeavors. That being said, I figured now was a good time to finally post the song that I can’t hear without thinking of him.
J, if you’re reading this, I truly do wish you love, joy, and peace throughout your life. May your years be long and your bounty plentiful.
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