Journy’s Journey

Someone recently asked me about the journey of my life, and what my next steps are.  It took a bit of thinking - and a lot of condensing! - but I finally had an answer for him.  As I was writing, I realized it wasn’t just for him, but for myself, as well as anyone who feels drawn to read it. So, without any further ado, here is my answer:

As so many of us are, I grew up in a very tumultuous home.  I won’t go into that too much, because it no longer defines me. It deserves mentioning, though, because it did get me where I am now :) 

We were Mormon, and I was very in love with my church.  Let me rephrase: I was (am) very in love with my God - so much so that it wasn’t until Divinity intervened in the form of my now-ex husband that I realized just how suppressive the Mormon culture is.  So I left the church, called myself ‘nondenominational Christian’ for a while, married this guy who’d opened my eyes... and kept growing.

I couldn’t explain it, but my views kept shifting.  I chalked it up to “I’m just being thorough” - after all, I’d been lied to in religion my whole life to that point - but I think deep down I knew it was more than that.  I’d always relied very heavily on my intuition, though, and my relationship with GOD only got deeper, so I trusted what (s)he told me and followed the direction I received.  This included a sudden move from NC to WY, staying with my husband while he stepped out of our marriage, and, eventually, choosing to divorce him.

Toward the end of our relationship, I had what I can only describe as a vision.  It was just one thing: a 3-dimensional, rainbow colored shape I’d never seen before.  Fast forward a little over a year and several epiphanies later, my Spiritual Partner and now-husband (lol the legal benefits are great) Randy sent me a video from the YouTuber “Spirit Science” that he thought I may resonate with... and there was the shape! It’s called the flower of life, & I realized instantly that what I had seen was the 3d(or more) form of that.  I was astonished.

I gleaned everything I could; up to that point I had felt so alone in my ‘theories’, and now suddenly an entire world of communities was being opened up to me! My intuitions became more and more meaningful, and the prophetic dreams I’d enjoyed every now and then were now giving me daily forecasts of the next days’ events (people I would meet, things that would happen, etc. Once I actually got a 3-day weather forecast 😂).  

It was at this time that the phrase “follow your passions” really hit and stuck, and I became very caught up in the energy of it all.  There was admittedly a great deal of trial-and-error, but fortunately my Love is agnostic and incredibly grounded, and he acted in many ways as the kite string that prevented my kite from crashing too heavily 😊 

Together, over the course of the next/last year or so, we went through... so much.  We have had experiences that cannot fully be described in these ‘few’ paragraphs, and they really deserve to be told in full if they’re going to be told at all.  Suffice it to say, my faith got deeper, my knowings and dreams shifted to ‘more’ (though what that ‘more’ is, I still don’t fully understand) and my desire to ‘know the truth’ finally faded as I realized: Truth is subjective to perspective. 

We now live in a free house (thank you Dream; thank you Steve), and I strive daily to do at least one thing I am passionate about, Be it writing, singing, acting (even in my kitchen), whatever.  Recently I took on candle making, and I’m looking forward to learning to dance.  I also have started doing karaoke every weekend at one of the local bars. Living life to the fullest is truly the goal; I know everything else will simply fall into place.

Of course I have goals, dreams, aspirations, etc, I’ve just realized that it’s best to ‘go with the flow’ of life.  When we set our goals, do what we can to work towards them, and let go of trying to control the outcomes or end results... things just work out.  Usually in ways that defy third-dimensional logic.  

As far as what is ‘next’ for me, my current plan is to keep working on the song I’m having produced.  Shake, which I’m so very fond of, came to me in a shower one day, and it’s my dream to see it made into a professionally-done music video.  Right now I have a demo which was done by an artist I absolutely adore, and though I love his work I have realized that it’s not what I’m going for.  So I guess my next step is to find an artist who values my opinion on which direction I want my song to go, as much as I value their musical expertise.  Once that’s done, well, I guess we’ll “let the good times roll”! 😊