Someone recently asked me about the journey of my life, and what my next steps are. It took a bit of thinking - and a lot of condensing! - but I finally had an answer for him. As I was writing, I realized it wasn’t just for him, but for myself, as well as anyone who feels drawn to read it. So, without any further ado, here is my answer: As so many of us are, I grew up in a very tumultuous home. I won’t go into that too much, because it no longer defines me. It deserves mentioning, though, because it did get me where I am now :) We were Mormon, and I was very in love with my church. Let me rephrase: I was (am) very in love with my God - so much so that it wasn’t until Divinity intervened in the form of my now-ex husband that I realized just how suppressive the Mormon culture is. So I left the church, called myself ‘nondenominational Christian’ for a while, married this guy who’d opened my eyes... and kept growing. I couldn’t explain it, bu...
Your story’s decided The ending is writ It’s already known - the lot that you’ll get How long you will struggle How far you will fall The lengths you will reach to overcome all And yet, though decided, It’s not set in stone And you have the power to alter the tone But that is not all; Should you so decide, Then you can choose here- now! -to edit, rewrite A paragraph, sentence, A chapter or two! After all, it’s your story, and your right to do... But yet, if we’ll listen, A thought comes to mind: “Whose hand was writing before, if not mine? Who wrote the story? Who held the pen?” To know Who, just listen - then listen again. Call IT Divinity, Call IT God’s Grace, Whatever you call it, IT’S here in this place IT’S everywhere I AM IT’S there where YOU ARE And IT knows the fate of each cell - of each star This planet we live in This universe grand All was created by Creator’s hand Each ...
This song is one that spoke to me profoundly at the end of my second marriage. Despite knowing I needed to, it took months and months for me to even consider leaving. Even after that, it took several months more to actually make the decision. My heart was broken, and I didn’t want to.... but ultimately I knew it was for the best. Once I finally faced the truth, there was no turning back... but still I dragged my feet. It was right about then that I heard this song again, and it struck me in a whole new way. I remember being in the car with him once when it came on. I remember staring out the icy windshield, willing the tears that had sprung to my eyes not to fall; he would ask what they were for, and I wasn’t ready to say it out loud yet. I remember being hurt and scared and angry... angry at God for not fixing my marriage; angry at myself for lacking whatever it was that ‘caused his attention to stray’; and angry at him, for forcing me into...
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